Er wtf

I just don't know wth I'm doing.
It just seems as if i'm screwing my own life up.
I'll need a miracle, I suppose?

Had my pri sch class gathering just now.
I was dam impressed with almost everyone there.
They were going to medicine, psychology, law etc.
In my mind, I was wondering wth have I been doing?
I remb I had similar or better grades than them when i was in pri sch.
And look how pathetic am i now?

Am I stupid?
Yes I suppose.
I'm dumb enough to let my own indolence screw myself up.

I think I should be jailed.
I find no difference between my current situation and suicide.

Gosh.
I need to wake up my idea.
I need a miracle.
I need motivation.

Er whatever defa.
Go screw yourself.