on the verge of giving up

I don't feel happy.
and i just wonder why...

I'm used to laughing a lot and doing crazy stuffs over de years.
But now in comparison, I must say that I've toned down a fair bit...

I just feel that the atmosphere isn't right.
And I've tried hard to manipulate it, but to no avail...

Some felt the same as me and understood how I felt.
But we're de minority...

'Sincerity', 'Understanding' & 'Appreciation'.
3 simple words,
yet, they couldn't get it...


I've thought of giving up many times.
But isn't that escapism I questioned myself...

But how much more longer can i take?
I just wonder...

It's bout to reach breaking point soon.../
yeah, pretty soon...







"jiayou defa,
you can do it."